Tales of a New Mom -aka- The Mama Bat

     Where is the joy of motherhood at 5:30 am when my 1 year old is wide awake and rearing to go? When he was just awake 2 hours ago, FOR 2 hours before going back to sleep. Where is the joy of motherhood when he's throwing fits because I know he's tired the next day and it's been 7 hours since he's slept? Where is the joy of motherhood when everything is a fit, every little thing that's taken away from him, even if I'm trying to help him? Where is the joy of motherhood when you are too tired after baby goes to sleep to give a crap or to even take care of yourself? Where is the joy of motherhood when every ounce of freedom is sucked away from you, when you finally sit down to blog, make a video, watch something, work on your art, or heck even take a nap. You start or even think about starting one of these tasks during nap time...and the cries begin. He's awake. He needs you. You do NOT get to do what you so desperately wanted to needed to do. Your life do...

  Life is pretty interesting with a 1 year old. The fact that we kept a child alive for a year is a miracle in itself! We have been beyond blessed this past year (and the 9 months of pregnancy) that Draygen has been such a healthy boy. He has had very minimal problems so far, Praise Jesus, and even did really well with his last round of shots, no fever, no crankiness! He is growing and learning so much. Food      We are officially off formula now and onto whole milk. Yay! No more arms and legs for cans of formula! I'm at a weird limbo stage though, when it comes to food. I'm kind of experimenting to find out what big people foods Draygen will actually like/eat. It's difficult too because his bowels are getting used to these new changes too. Thankfully he likes Prunes...lol. I have a ton of baby food left over from Wic and Draygen doesn't really want to eat it, except a few of his favorites. So to get him to eat fruit and veggies, I'm giving him smoothies. ...

This post will probably be a bit gripy, but hey...as always I'm being an honest new mom.... My little guy is 1 now!      There have been so many days, so many moments when taking care of my son, where I said to myself, "I should blog this!" and did I get to? No, of course not, I'm too busy doing just that, taking care of my son!  I sacrifice or put off the things I want to do so that I can chase him around and be the best I can for him. Mom life is an amalgamation of so many feelings and emotions. It is rewarding, yes, but it is also exhausting, frustrating, silly, fun, amazing, magical and downright crazy! There are many more emotions but those are the main ones that come to mind. So Draygen is 1 now. He had his birthday April 27th and like any excited new mom, I gave him a special 1st Birthday party. My husband was puzzled by my enthusiasm for this but I said, "Hey, he only get's 1 first Birthday, we gotta make it special!" And it was. He was a...

Trapped inside No where to hide No where to go Life is so slow Or is it too fast? I don't know, I've lost track Myself is gone She's no where to be found Off in another land, adventure bound Existing for responsibility, is quite a harsh task Some time alone to find me, Is that too much to ask?

So by the time you are a parent or maybe even while you are expecting, you have heard the term "sleep training" thrown around. If you look it up, you will find all kinds of advice on helping your baby to learn to fall asleep on his/her own, and the methods to do so. You'll probably also find a lot of arguments for and against sleep training. The first time I heard about it was from some friends who where sleep training their daughter. It sounded easy at first, establish a routine, read books and put baby to bed. I thought, yeah that's something we could try when the time comes and I back burner-ed it for the time being, only to forget about it when Draygen became of sleep training age. I go to Care Net to learn about child development from my mentor. We watch videos and one video we happened to watch (when my Husband attended the appointment with me) was on sleep training. Despite the fact that this video was incredibly dated, it did have some good advice on getti...

Draygen was being camera shy...lol Baby and I seem to be in a rut. We are both bored these days with the same old toys, books and video songs. I have a lot of ideas for things to do when he's older but he's too young (10 months now) to do any of those things right now. So we end up doing the same old things. *sigh* Any ideas on what else to do?? I've looked up what to do with a 9/10 month old and I've basically already done them! Either that or they are short little things that don't occupy much time. I love my little boy so much and I want to be able to entertain him and enjoy it myself, but I'm find it increasingly difficult. Walks usually cure the boredom for a while for both of us and they take up time, which is great, but the weather has not cooperated lately. Last week we had several days of snow that stuck around and this week it's cold and rainy. To top all this off I'm battling a shoulder impingement injury...no fun and not easy when const...

I miss this girl... Who knew that a little person who entered our lives 8 months and 9 days ago would also be a thief?! Not only has he stole our hearts but he has stolen or identity!  Please don't think I'm being cruel when I say this. It's partially in jest but also somewhat true, per the situation of new parents. I have not been feeling myself ever since Draygen was born, more so over the past few months, it's just gotten worse. There are days when I just don't care what the hell I look like when I get out of bed and minimal effort is put in after showering. I used to care more, I mean, I still do, but now it's like, what's the point?! I rarely go out, except the store and church and the rest of the time I'm home. I can't be creative with my hair because baby's always pulling it, so up it goes, can't wear jewelry cause he'll pull at that too, not EVEN gonna risk dangly earrings and clothes, well, might as well be comfy if I...