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Back Again with Baby #2


     Here I am back again. Doing the Mom thing ALL over again. It's been about 4 years since I wrote in this blog and if anyone at all was reading this, I apologize for my hiatus. I spend most of my time update life on vlogs on my Youtube channel. Yes, this is baby #2 for me and very most likely my last child, unless by some weird miracle of God's will that I should have another! But no, I'm done. I don't know why all of a sudden I am returning to this blog. Maybe its because today marks the first full day that I will be alone with 2 children as my husband has returned to work after 6 weeks of Paternity Leave. I am very grateful for the family time we had together this past 6 weeks and that both of our jobs allowed us the paid time off. But I'm having some anxiety about being alone with 2 kids. Now if you are reading this and are a parent of more than 2 kids and are thinking, "Big Deal! I got 3, 4, 5 or more. You only have 2?! Buck up and deal with it!" If you are, then I commend you. It's thankless, wonderful work that you are doing and I honestly do not know how you do it. I'm just starting out so we'll see how it goes. My son, Draygen, is now 6 years old. We did homeschool for Kindergarden but now he is going to public school for 1st grade, which helps so I will have mornings and early afternoons with the baby. Maybe this will be good for me. But of course I'm going to have some hard days, that's inevitable. Most of the time my son is very nice with the baby, he loves his little sister and helps out when he can but he does demand a lot of attention, is loud and repeats himself a lot. So these times when he's doing this and baby girl is being belligerent for a meal, are the times I dread. The times I worry I won't be able to handle it and lose it with my son . I feel myself slipping back into old negative thinking patterns, especially when I'm tired. I broke down twice last night and hoping I keep it together today. Coffee helps...lol.



 
     That being said, let me introduce you to baby #2, Pandora who is 1 month old. People ask us if she is a "good baby" and we reply "yes" but what is a good baby? I mean, are there bad babies at this age? You really can't fault them, they have no idea what they're doing. So are there really any "bad babies?" Difficult babies I'd say, but not bad. So Pandora is not a difficult baby, so far. She's pretty chill as babies go, but ya know, she's still a baby and in demand of food, attention, diaper changes and all that baby stuff. Either way, I love both of my children very much and of course I'd do anything for them. Being cut open twice to bring them into the world is proof of that! (More on that later) Regardless of my fears for the day, I'm doing my best to rely on God, be grateful and enjoy the little moments.

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